#jimmy is never going home

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"God, but life is loneliness, despite all the opiates, despite the shrill tinsel gaiety of “parties” with no purpose, despite the false grinning faces we all wear. And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter - they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long. Yes, there is joy, fulfillment and companionship - but the loneliness of the soul in its appalling self-consciousness is horrible and overpowering."

Sylvia Plath (via selfinspiration)

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"How much of my brain is willfully my own? How much is not a rubber stamp of what I have read and heard and lived? Sure, I make a sort of synthesis of what I come across, but that is all that differentiates me from another person?"

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via selfinspiration)

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126.4

Is be pissed if I wasn’t so geared up to go to school/knew I binged yesterday/its 6 hours earlier than usual/know I’m going to do better.

Just binged at family dinner.

Off to purge and feel guilty as fuck.

125.4

WHYYYYYY

Ate because I couldn’t stand feeling drunk.

Now I’m currently at 300 cals and 87% positive I’m going to throw them back up. blehhhh

Sorry for liveblogging my hangover guys

Yeah, it’s 124.6

I’d be more enthusiastic if I wasn’t so. fucking. drunk. 8 hours later. And not even fun-drunk. Just drunk-drunk. And I want to eat something so I stop being so fucking drunk, but I don’t want the numbers to go up. So classy.

How am I still the drunkest creature to ever be drunk?

How? Ughhhhh

124.6 is my preliminary weight

For this verrry hungover morning. I’d be more excited if I wasn’t still sleeping/ sure it’s gonna go down more.

Ugh I’m pretty sure I went over the cals for today somewhere around my sixth shot but I am never eating ever again (read: today) so I will probably fast anyway.

Dude. So still drunk.

SO

The party that I thought was gonna happen got cancelled and I thought God had answered my demented little prayers. And now it’s back on. And I WANT to go. I just don’t want to ingest anything! And it’s gonna happen cause I’m weeeak.

But I haven’t had anything to eat so… two hundred calories free… What can I drink that has less 200 calories?

I haven’t had anything to eat or drink

Because I am obsessed with watching my weight change.

That’s a new development.

Also, party tonight. :| I DON’T WANNA DRINK BUT IT’S GONNA HAPPEN.

"It’s bullshit to think of friendship and romance as being different. They’re not. They’re just variations of the same love. Variations of the same desire to be close."

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“At times the world can seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe us when we say that there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough. And what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events may, in fact, be the first steps of a journey.”

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Cintia Dicker

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